Somewhere between the slurpee and the skinned knee...

You're probably reading this and hoping for something real right? Well... I have been sitting here for a half an hour now and this blank screen still hasn't fed my finger tips anything that I think would be worth reading. I'm caught in a heated debate... Half of me wants to say that I should wait until I have something worth while and half of me wants to take a blind first step and see where this adventure takes me.

I've been looking for the sound of his piano. I don't mean to be blunt but I'm sick of trying to put together ways to start this post and it hasn't gotten me any closer to what I used to feel when the speakers used to shake our windows. As crazy as it sounds... I feel like the sheet music is somewhere close enough to see but far enough not to hear.
Every once and awhile I can almost hear the treble cleff break through the double paned plexi glass. But it's never enough to motivate me for more than a week... Let alone shake the frames it passes through.
I know the sharps and flats are all there. I can even see them coordinate themselves acording to majors and minors.
So my questions to you are these
How do I hear his music again?
Would I even recognize it if I heard it?
and
Why don't the speakers play the same anymore?